"...Everyone needs a place. It shouldn't be inside of someone else."
I nearly forgot myself in my first relationship. I tried to be considerate to the point where I doubted if the things I said or the things I did, were really true to who I was. I thought it was okay though. When things were good, everything was amazing. I was happy. My days were brighter. But whenever we argued, it would always leave me emotionally drained... A stranger walked up to me today after church just to ask me why I looked so sad? And I really had to ask myself, why was I so sad? I stuck to what I felt and that hurt him. Because of that, I started hurting inside too. But why is it that when I'm being truly me, it's when there's the most hurt?
It shouldn't be this way... I realize I shouldn't have to always be apologetic for who I am. And who I am, is not THE answer that he relies on even if he thinks that right now, I am what he needs. It's time I refocus on my life again and really try to understand who I am and who I want to be in this relationship...
I nearly forgot myself in my first relationship. I tried to be considerate to the point where I doubted if the things I said or the things I did, were really true to who I was. I thought it was okay though. When things were good, everything was amazing. I was happy. My days were brighter. But whenever we argued, it would always leave me emotionally drained... A stranger walked up to me today after church just to ask me why I looked so sad? And I really had to ask myself, why was I so sad? I stuck to what I felt and that hurt him. Because of that, I started hurting inside too. But why is it that when I'm being truly me, it's when there's the most hurt?
It shouldn't be this way... I realize I shouldn't have to always be apologetic for who I am. And who I am, is not THE answer that he relies on even if he thinks that right now, I am what he needs. It's time I refocus on my life again and really try to understand who I am and who I want to be in this relationship...